Weird Dream Visitors

Friday, March 26, 2010

Monday, March 8, 2010

Wrought

Sometimes things just.... happen together.

Cosmic intersections, interceptions or what ?
When they do, you are touched. Mostly speechless but screaming inside.

" I´m left alone with all the monsters in my head
They say to me you won´t choose life over death
Insane attraction causes stillness in my mind
Only a fraction of the things I´ve left to find

Oh without you, all alone
I see right through
Strong intentions left and gone

I can´t control my so impulsive frame of mind
I feel the reigns, the bridle, jerk my head in line
I wanna scream I wanna kill I wanna shout
I choke it back and take a punch right in the mouth "

music | Peratus

video | Legs & Cranius

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Freelancer

Driving by night on highways in Canada is probably the closest I will come to feeling like being in a spaceship.

I was driving from Waterloo to Brampton one night and I had this feeling that wasn't really a flash but more like another transparent layer of perception that has come on top of the primary, "real" layer, so it looked and felt like I was experiencing two different realities at the same time, overlapped.

They were different but in some strange, weird and familiar way very similar.

I was in my car, surrounded by impenetrable darkness, occasionally passing other vehicles and every once in a while passing near some human habitats and it felt, looked and really resembled and resonated in my soul like I was in space. My car was my spaceship, darkness around me was deep space and rare vehicles around me were other space travelers - traders, adventurers, rogues, pirates and freelancers like myself. Rare and distant cities I was passing by were small systems, planets and space stations that you see as you travel through populated space. In that big nothingness and blackness the only thing keeping me alive was my spaceship, the only things breaking silence were hum of the ship's engine and quiet music coming from my ship's sound system, playing music that made me feel closer and more united with myself and everythingness around me.

As I was experiencing those two layers, amused and surprised and intrigued and I don’t even know the word to describe the experience of those two layers being so different but matching so perfectly together, it was then that I suddenly saw a big mass on the horizon.

It looked like we are on the same course, just that mass was moving slower than me. I kept my course that would bring me closer to it. As i was getting closer I realized that mass is actually not one big mass but a group of objects in space, moving together.

Soon enough I was passing by a fleet of huge freighters, a large space caravan !

Their individual size multiplied by their numbers was accentuated by their slow moving speed, making them simultaneously look scary, gracious, magnificent and powerful. In awe, I felt so small in my little ship as I was looking at them through my cockpit.

My speed being slightly greater than theirs I slowly passed by them and left them behind me. I threw a last look at that large space beast in my rear-view monitor and soon enough I was again alone in space. Music was soothing, engine was humming and darkness closed around me once again.

Few more light years and I will reach system Brampton and land for a little while...

Most generic news report - Charlie Brooker's Newswipe

One of the reasons why I don't watch news:

By the way, check other Charlie Brooker's Newswipe clips - the guy is genius...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Here it is, long waited status update of Waterloo adventure !

It has been an interesting 2 months !

I moved to a new city called Waterloo and started working as a coop student for Research in Motion (RIM), number one company in Canada and World's number one growing company (if you follow the link, you may find out even more interesting stuff about RIM).

To my surprise, for which i entirely blame my working experiences from Serbia (except Beogrid), company is consisted of extreme, wonderfuly big, large, HUGE number of young people ! :)

But, let's start from the beginning. Well, we don't have to go all the way to the beginning of everything, but let's go back to the beginning (this word is so hard to type!) of year 2010.

As you may or may not know, i am a student of Sheridan College in Brampton, Canada.

I am taking a 3 year program called "Software Development and Network Engineering", which is consisted of regular full-time school and 3 times 4 months of coop terms, and which i will hopefully end in December 2011.

To make things easier to understand, lets put it like this (each part is 4 months):

school -> school -> school -> coop -> school -> coop -> school -> coop -> school

In December i have finished my third semester (out of 6) of school and time came for me to start my first 4 months long coop term (semester of work instead of school - praksa). I have been applying for 17+ jobs through my college coop system when I got offer to work for RIM. In Waterloo. 100km from Brampton, 150km from Toronto.

There it was, a decision to be made.

Refuse RIM and look for something else, somewhere closer or accept the offer from RIM and...

...move to Waterloo.

[ dramatic silence ]

So, here i am.

I have been working for almost two full months and didn't get too much chance to see the city. During the week i have two days (tuesdays and thursdays) when i have to work in the evening because i am working as a network assistant and some changes to the network can be made only after regular working hours.
Other days i'm either too tired or too annoyed by (shity) winter weather so i just go to my rented basement where i have established my Waterloo HQ and then i get myself working on all kinds of crazy ideas that i have, like switching blogs or creating new ways of memorizing important stuff (MEC) or trying to draw some kind of diagram of computer network that i have created so far all over the World (New Belgrade + Brampton outpost + W'loo).... It never ends...

Friday comes and then i go to Brampton to spend the weekend with Katarina. I usualy return on Sunday night and then - rinse, repeat.

That's about it so far, if some new exciting stuff happens you will be the first to know !

Pozdrav Cp6ujo, gde god da si.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

За оне који се питају како сам - For does wondering how i'm doin'

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson
about a battle that goes on inside all people.

He said, “My son, the battle is between two
wolves that dwell inside each and everyone of us.

“One is Evil.
It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed,
arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority,
lies, false pride, superiority and ego.

The other is Good.
It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility,
kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity,
truth, compassion and faith.”

The grandson thought about it for
a minute, and then asked his grandfather:

“Which wolf will win ?”

The old Cherokee simply replied:
“The one you feed.”